You left me, You just went, ..
And I let you go away ..

Tried again and again to forget what had happened,
forget You, Us .

Everything.
Unfortunately, I failed...

Tried to push aside all thoughts that jumped around in my head.
Tried to pretend that everything had been just a dream.
I told myself that you were unreal..
And I got myself to believe in that you were someone that I only have met,

once in a dream ..
I told myself  "She's  unreal"

And "She's never even existed."

Everything is repeated again and again.

I see it over and over again in my head.

It never ends..

.. Those three little words I told you..
Those three small words,

that you let floating around in the air between us,
In an such a cold and icy atmosphere .. 

I told you that I loved you,
but you said nothing back.

  You let it be unanswered ..

I wished I could go down and hide under the earth,
And stay there forever.
I repressed everything,

 It was like we had never met.
I turned left at the fork,
Found a new path to follow and explore.

Now I've  found tenderness and intimacy,

I've found someone who loves me,

 as I never thought you could do..

Deep down inside I still hesitate.

I know it.
Tell me.. Have I found the right place?
The question echoes in my head, 

feel like the world's scum who do not even know what I want.
I feel like a scam,  scammers, as a big lie.
Deep inside I know I still have doubts about whether I come to the right Place.
But how can I be right,

How can this be right.. when you're not here?!

I feel lost and empty, confused.


  And that's exactly when you suddenly where standing here in front of me again ..
You said the three words that I always wanted to hear you say...

"I love you."

 I'm trapped in a darkness, a darkness so strong.
The way that I thought would lead me to freedom, took me to a completely different place.
so alone. trapped in a darkness is there any way out?
Our eyes met each other, It looked like my darkness began to disperse. 

like it would disappear altogether this time.
Our lips met, it was almost like they were made ​​for each other.
You held your hand in mine You promised never to let go of it ..
.. to never let go of me. You kissed my lips and took my heart.
just to tear it apart into millions of pieces. and then leave me there with a heart broken just like a dropped mirror into a thousand pieces, and the most important piece is missing.
that piece, just the piece that keeps all the other pieces in the right place thatwill protect, the bit that makes it not to fall apart again!
it was just the piece that holds me together as you did, before you walkt away ..
darkness was once again crawling below my feet.
Getting ready to release the anxiety and panic free over me as I lost all hopeand I seem to have lost all my energy and all my joys to life.

I am once again trapped in a darkness, a darkness whitout end, My darkness have become like my prison. I wonder if I ever find the way out...

Onödigt inlägg nudå, men slutar lektionen nu.. typ.

så då drar jag mig för ett möta på bup.

härligt, dock får ja väl springa därifrån sen så jag hinner med bussen hem. 

lägger upp ett lite nödvändigare inlägg sen.

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